A Kaikōura restaurant owner whose co-worker, Stephen Cochrane, died in the Christchurch earthquake will not reopen. She cannot face losing staff if a big aftershock hits.
Karen Barwick and her husband, Bruce, ran Cellar View. The wedding venue and restaurant sits on top of a hill looking across South Bay and the Kaikōura Ranges.
Standing in the wine cellar, Mrs Barwick broke into tears thinking about the events of the past week.
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"The building is fine. There is nothing wrong with it, but we've lost everything inside. All our stock, the beautiful plates and things I spent so long picking out.
"We just can't afford to replace it all - our insurance excess is too much," Mrs Barwick said.
She worked at a furniture store in Christchurch when the February 2011 earthquake struck. She moved to Kaikōura to start the business 17 months ago.
"One of my co-workers was killed at work. I saw what that did to my boss - he was never the same. It was like a flame went out in him.
"I can't reopen because I couldn't deal with it if I lost one of my staff while they were working here.
"If anyone was hurt or killed here I would never forgive myself," she said.
Mrs Barwick said it was devastating to walk away.
"We had amazing times here, we met some beautiful people, but our time is up."